Guess what this blogpost is about?
Yes, I’ve got something like that. And I think it’s time that I get my thoughts together and write about it.
So, over the past two years I’ve been so confronted with everything concerning sexualities and gender types and so many things I didn’t know about that I think it’s finally the time to talk about. What did I learn about myself through the internet? How did it maybe affect me?
A while ago I didn’t really care about my sexuality. It was just… there. But I guess I noticed a change, or I realized that I relate to many people out there. Two years ago I didn’t even know other sexualities than hetero and homo existet. But then the internet happened. Now I know a lot about it. I read about it, cared about this topic, talked with many people about their experiences.
I got involved.
Now I’m definitely a big LGBT+ supporter (I thought about writing a longer form of this abbreviation but I always get it confused so I’ll just leave it like that). And I’m proud of it. I get what LGBT+ Pride is and I feel like a part of this community.
A few months ago I started thinking more about my own sexuality, what I feel about genders and the people I have crushes on. I realized, that I don’t really care which gender my partner (well, if I had one) has. Female or male, it doesn’t really matter, there are hot women and men out there. I won’t identify as pansexual though, mostly because I don’t really get the concept and also because, I don’t know, it doesn’t feel like it’s the thing I could connect with myself.
So, I’m sticking with bisexual.
Woooo. It’s out. I’m telling people about it.
Okay, I actually have been telling people about it for a while, two months or so, but I never really wrote it down. This feels like something serious. And it means for me that I can officially tell you, I’m sure about this, I know what I feel and I’m proud of it.
I always feel great when I discover something about myself. It’s always very interesting for me and it helps me to understand myself better and to really be happy with myself.
I never felt the need to come out to anyone and I still don’t think that I will ever do that. I’ll just mention it at some point to people or act like that and that’s it. For me my sexuality is not a very big deal. It is kind of important, yes, but not so much.
I know that a lot of people are confused with what they feel and maybe I’m still a bit like that but I guess at some point you’ll have an enlightenment and you’ll know it. I hope. It was like that for me.
I really want to write more about this topic but I don’t really know what (yet).
And I want to get more involved.
After watching the amazing film Pride I thought about going to a Gay Pride. Near my home are big Christopher Street Day celebrations in July and I really want to get involved with that. I hope that really happens!
Thanks for reading my thoughts. What do you think about this whole who-do-I-want-to-sleep-with-or-not thing?
See you soon ❤