“I’d trade all my tomorrows for just one yesterday”
– Just One Yesterday by Fall Out Boy (x)
Finally Fall Our Boy comes to this blog. I really love them and I think it’s time I mention them here.
I guess I found them through tumblr, at some point in summer 2013. I’m pretty sure Light ’em up is the first of their songs I’ve ever listened too. I love all of their new music and I love most of their older stuff too. They are just such a cool band and their songs often have a message or I can relate to them a lot.
Just One Yesterday is one of my favourites. I love the song a lot and I always listened to it last year in spring when I went for a run (oh the good old times when I actually moved my body).
So, about this quote.
Sometimes I like living in the past. Sometimes I think everything was better before and it won’t ever be this awesome again. As you might know by now, I’m not good at dealing with stuff that is over. So I often wish I could go back and relive those lovely moments.
I’m still not over the death of my cat. Every day when I come home I think “oh, now he would have meowed and welcomed you” or when I go into the living room I think “oh, now he would have told your parents that you’re coming way before you step into the room” or “now he would have come to you to snuggle” and I hate it. I hate it that I want to go back in time and relive those moments again because I can’t. I will never see my cat again and I will never hold him in my arms again and let him calm my nervous break downs. It won’t ever happen and that makes me cry and be sad all the time.
It’s shit! It makes me feel down!
There is this saying “Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened”. It’s actually a good advice. But I can’t often follow it. It works with events like HobbitCon and meeting distant friends or holidays. I’m so happy I could live those moments and have a great time. Of course I’m sad it’s over but I’m so glad it really happened and I hope there will be moments that are equally great.
When I’m feeling down I don’t think like that though. I just think “it will never be this amazing again” and that’s stupid. Because I can’t know that. Why shouldn’t great things happen in the future?
So yeah, I have to remind myself of that constantly.
Listenting to great music helps sometimes. Because like that I can deal with it and I don’t feel alone with my fears and feelings.
Do you know and like FOB and their songs?
See you soon ❤